i loved somebody once,
they betrayed.
still i loved them.
they knew it.
they abused it.
i was a happy puppet.
now im heartbroken,
but it hasnt gotten the best of me.
im also enraged.
i think that makes things..
better.
i hatetoloveyou and lovetohateyou.

hmm. i really dont like that term.
my best friend is grace.
known her for a long time now.
dont see each other as much as we use to (relationships do that).
but i still try and talk to her.
yah.

having internet for the first time.
virginity.
having a cell phone.
humans.
pets.
dinosaurs, didnt make it. (does that qualify?)
bad movies in theaters.
dead bodies.
life.
anything else? lemme know.

you know what? i was hesitant on this, but i want people to text me. so here's my cell.. hit me up, would ya?    605.759.1732

i have a strange obession with the movie Cold Mountain...but its soooooooo good.

SO. its been ages since i last updated....and i feel bad for that. but lack of computer does that to you. strangely enough, nothing has been going on in my life. i may be losing my best friend to her controlling boyfriend, my dog might be blind in her left eye and she's only recently turned 4. i have been single for 7 months now and counting. i havent even been trying to date honestly.

its just been drama.
and ive been fed up.

but there is a plus out there.
im a senior. last year of school... high school anyway.
almost done..
i have chemistry and government that may be my hardest classes.
we'll see.
later kids :)

i have not posted anything in a very long time. but if i had something to talk about, i probably wouldve posted. lol.
well. i decided to myself to keep from dating. i have no clue if that is healthy, but its too much work. dating shouldnt be complicated all the time.
so that is my goal.
byes.

bored.! but learning.
i have nothing to talk about.
dylan and i are arguing i guess.
so thats all that im focused with.
i hung up on him last night because he was
being....rude.
but he said he was joking.
so i hung up.
and he said since i dont want to talk than we dont need to.
so if he talks, ill ignore him. ill ignore him till Friday.
but if he wants to break up than we shall do so cause
i dont play reindeer games. (Rudolf)

I am in my photography class. I felt like randomly posting an entry, although it shouldn't be random. I really should do it more.
What's new in my life? Nothing really actually (i can predict my future texts lol jk)..eh o: crickets.
I am not listed as "single" on Facebook. haha. yes I am in a relationship...even though sex happened on the second date...kinda makes me feel easy.


oh boy..just checked my grades and i am failing my photograhpy class too..hmmm
. anyhow. here comes the weekend!!!
what are you people planning on doing??

who has cures to help get rid of bordom?

i actually had intents on saying something but it slipped my mind... :(
oh yeah.
my dog is sick. she has a sore infection. poisoned from antibiotics. and was given aspirin...on and old dog treats. (this was all while i WASNT there, which seems to happen..)
ughh.

im bored. not just any bored... but bored. and this presidents vacation thing will just fly by.
i hope to get a haircut... and hang out with adam<3 ..
tomorrow is that agenda along with being invited to hang out with grace! rare occassion now, so i intend to make the best of it.
now i have nothing to talk about.
 iii i  ii i i  believe i have to work today.. but id rather be at work instead of home.... i hate getting along with my :parents: cause once i do, shit happens..
i need to live with my mom.

boring days. you win again.

why am i cool? because i have dinosaur icons. thats why. lol.

hhhhmmmmmmmm. cheap ass companies :for you grace :) : but she does have a valid arguement.
today is just a total blur to me..
i cannot wait to go to my mom's this weekend so i can 1)see adam and 2)go see Underworld 3 with my mom-for we love those movies and i have loved vampires before this whole Twilight revolution.

do you think stuck up people realize that nobody likes them? or are they so caught up in themselves that they probably dont even notice???

maybe its a genetic disease...   XD

i hate the dentist. now im not expert on dentistry but my last dentist (instead of in her words "fixing my mouth"),  i think she gave me an allergic reaction to something.  NOW my dad feels the need to get me an appointment which i really do notttt need.     this better just be a checkup or iimmm cutting jugulars TONIGHT.

im sitting in photography and suddenly realized that i have not been on here in awhile. i didnt realize how busy life is... ughh.
so anyhow. i am going to see what is new in the lj world:)

question:if you have sex with two different people in one week, does that make you a whore?

I believe i would have to live near the ocean. its beautiful. and i love the water element. (but i love all elements so its a tough question). still, im a fan of the aquatic deep, so the ocean works for me.

i really hate how much people complain. im not saying i dont. i just notice how much others do it and it bugs me. this one girl that is in my class always asks "what if" or always has something to say to draw attention to herself somehow.
it gets very annoying.
annoying. if people would just shut up and do their work, they wouldnt have to complain and things MAY be easier for them.
wow. here i am complaining. lol.
i have nothing to talk about. i would complain about the lack of a love life, but that is what everybody talks about these days so boring... right?
i think ill just shush.
oh, by the way, who is ready for  christmas?!!!!!!!!!!!!?!